Part 4: Rebuilding...

You have heard the story of how I fell to the lowest of spots, but now its my chance to glorify God and share with you how I have slowly started standing back up... For it is by His grace, and through His love alone that I was ever able to start rebuilding... Rebuilding my heart, my faith, my friendships, and my focus on life.

I am not going to continue doing this in a specific linear account or recap of events. Rather I am just going to share some of the random trials, truths, insights, and thoughts that I have come upon going down this path of rebuilding. By writing all of this I mostly hope to just reflect on the many thoughts that I am having, in hope that my moments of "discovery" are not experienced and then lost.   

Though I write as if my words are directed at an audience, in all honesty, I am doing all of this for me, so that I may get off of my chest the multitude of contemplations, assessments, and ideas that spin through my head each day... At this point I have not made ANY of this blog public, who knows if I ever will... 

But I feel that it is only by coming to terms with the steps I am making that I can give glory to God. It is only by taking a step back (assessing what is happening in my life) that I can fully appreciate the workings of God as I go through this transformation... And what better of a way than to express through writing each step along the way... 

Whether this is all done just for me (and never shared); or done so that others may read this and get a feel for my experience, to God be all the glory! This isn't about me.... I am still a lost, confused, and hurting individual. I am nothing! I am so small in this world, easily forgotten, easily missed... But our God isn't, he is huge, he is marvelous, he is what it (life) is all about....